failure -_- Saturday, March 5, 2011 / 2:54 PM
school has such been a totally banal as i have lost all of ma enthusiasm in studying... coz y? coz i have flunked MOST of ma subjects, maybe not most but ALL , which pulls all ma confidence down. And having less confidence means, less enthusiasm of studying, and having less enthusiasm, ma future is GONE. well, thats how i'm feeling now. i just have one word to describe now and it is DEPRESSED. i am totally dissappointed with ma bad results. not even a single As for ma subject. especially when i am in 3e1 which proves that i am not FIT to be in that class as ma results have proven. studied really hard till 12am just for ma common test, and got a terrible results was such a core as all my hard work and efforts have gone to tha drain just like that. -_- i hate myself for being so STUPID. and now, i have only one achievement, which was to buck up and get going. i wanna get distinctions for most of ma subjects, and keep on stuying now, till mid-year. talking about ma failure, really hurts me so i guess i should stop now...
well, yesterdaay was kinda okaay for me in school. i went ta sch with a very ugly eye bags, coz of smtg which i didnt wanna eleborate........well, i looove P.E as we played floorball. its kinda funny at how we "smashed" tha ball. huhu ^.^ English period was on VOCABULARY, which entirely brings ma mood down as my vocab sucks a lot. -_- but fortunately, ms pereira knws that i can do it, i and she said that i shouldnt give up. :D i LOVE her, simply bcoz she re-gained ma confidence, but sadly, i found vocab superly hard for me, coz i WORD CLASS was difficult for me. :'( i need to buck up now, and i really did went for malay remedial, with Mdm Raudzah for help. (: and which reminds me, i REALLY studied ma CHEMISTRY. which i just finished minutes ago....
at 8pm, i went out to tampines, ALONE. and it was so weird for me coz, i NEVER go out alone especially at night. hehe. i went to take my specs. and HOORAAAY, finally. pics are below with ma new specs. (:
i am waiting for mummy, coz i'm gg out wit her, SOON. called her, but didnt pick up -.-. where are youu? asked me to get ready at 2pm, but have'nt change now.... hehe. well, gonna continue studying SOON. i have to bring up my self-confidence again.
and tommorow is SYF rehersal, GOSH. its gonna be boring and tiring coz arranging angklung here and there was uninteresting. and i hope that i would be able to have ma breakfast at Macs tmr. :)OUHH,., i suddenly rmbered R... and i hope he's fine now. he's head is bleeding coz i pushed him, yesterdaaay. and i am soooooooooo GUILTY. URGH. why did i pushed him in tha first place?? i seriously hope he's okaay now. :'(
