well, i had to admit that i have been keeping it within myself. its like a millions of years since i kept it, but it wasnt. it just happened a few mnths ago... or maybe a mnth ago? its not that i wanna bring back tha past again. it just that i wanna write how i feel right now. its pain keeping it all along, i have to admit. i kept remembering how you accused me badly. yes youu. i remembered how you said that i took advantage of you. haish. maybe i did. i just wished how i would ..... i dunn knw. maybe i should have rejected you in tha first place so you wouldnt be taken advantage of a person like me. sometimes i just feel that i am not worth for you. in ma life.. i have nvr heard anyone or whoever i love say this kinda things to me. cause i myself knw when i love someone, i love with sincerity. taking advantage of someone aint my motive. even though i may have an enemy in life. i nvr thought of taking advantage of anyone. and if i did... i would regret tha whole part of my life, blaming myself. you knw how sad it is when you exactly said it right in front of ma face. yes. it hurts a lot. i have been keeping all this pain... and letting it all go on ma blog it hurts me even more,reminiscing tha past. i wonder if i really am taking advantage of you. never have i thought you would say such things like that.