what i am feeling now Saturday, July 23, 2011 / 5:05 PM
i dunn knw how to explain this, but i'm in a confused situation right now. there's part of me where i hate him, and there's part of me where i love him. i dunn knw why. well, i hate to be in this kind of situation by hating someone i love. i hate it. sometimes, i suddenly would hate him and just do whatever things that would make him stay away from me or leave me alone. i kinda thing that he changed. i dunn knw why. i had to bear all this, its painful. i tried. holding back my tears every minute just hurts me a lot. people ask me how me and him going along and i cant answer. i just went silent and say that me and him are just friends. its hurting me but i just have to accept the reality that we are friends after all. why would i pretend to be with him, when i am not at all? i am disheartened now. i dunn knw what to do. if i were allowed to go back in time, i would want to be with him... but the thing is... i cant.
